The Circle of Life

Eight years ago today I had an extensive lumpectomy for DCIS. Pretty much a mastectomy ’cause my artist of surgeon took a lot of tissue and I wasn’t overly endowed to begin with!

Today my dear relative told me doctors now recommend hospice. She is determined to LiveSTRONG and fill her remaining days with as much joy and peace as she can pack into what time there is left to her.

Today a few hours after her news, one of my stepsons in Scotland called with the joyous announcement that they are expecting a new little life…a wee girl…to be brought into the world in June.

Two years ago we had much the same scenario…my mother was dying, we had a trip to Scotland planned, and little grandson Fionn was soon to make his arrival.

I am feeling so blessed and filled with wonder at the affirmation of life…the Circle of Life…that has been presented to me today.

As one life prepares to leave, another is preparing to arrive. As my family here in the States is dwindling, my family in Scotland is flourishing. 

Dave and I will be celebrating our third wedding anniversay next Wednesday. I have so much to be thankful for tonight.  My heart is full. 

Peace all….

 

Here and Now

So all we have is right here…right now.  Brown this evening…feeling a bit grounded?

 

Listening to "Metal and Steel" from the Driven CD I got at the 2004 Ride for the Roses.  I remember that morning driving out to the ride staging area.  In the dark, feeling so strong, so alive, cruising down the road with the truck windows open feeling the cool morning air.  This CD blasting away.  Feeling my power…again, such JOY in being alive, being in the moment. 

 

Took a solo trip with our trailer to Waco to visit my cousin earlier this month.  Easy as pie, hooking up the rig and towing down the highway.  A mini slice of my dream back when I was single.  I was on a mission, too, going to see the cuz.  It was a good trip on several levels.  Nice to know the Sarah Connor in me is alive and well…just hangin’ until called upon to go into action.  I sure slept well in the trailer.  Very cozy.

 

So there are pics of that taken with my old digital camera and then some misc/silly ones trying out the new camera, a Canon PowerShot.  Really like it.  Upgraded in prep (had to stop and pet the dog) for our upcoming trip to Scotland.  Don’t want to miss snaps of the grandson!  Getting over there every other year…well, who knows what might happen in the next two years.  So we’re going with the frame of mind to have a rippin’ time!  Everything’s booked, now it’s just count down the 60+ days until we board the big bird and wing across The Pond.

 

I get three nights/four days in my beloved Highlands and Glen Coe this time.  Heaven on Earth; the home of my soul.

 

So much happening right now that I won’t get into here…just treasuring each day, each moment.  Right here, right now.

 

Taught a Reiki I class last week; students coming back this week for Reiki II.  I have missed teaching.  It’s the first class I’ve had here but so far so good.  This place has good energy so, who knows…maybe there will be more.  It just reaffirmed to me what I’m supposed to be doing…that I can still do it…again, that part of me is still there…peeking out now and then…still very much who I am. 

 

So I suppose the Muse is still with me, just hanging out with the mystic and Sarah C, emerging now and then. 

 

It’s so easy to get caught up in the everyday process we call life.  Work.  Laundry. Dishes.  Housekeeping.  Paying bills.  Sometimes one just has to stop and step off into the real world…not the tangible, manufactured world we call life, but what is really important.  Our spouse/partner.  Our spirituality.  The voice of someone you treasure, even for two or three minutes…soaking in that voice.  Watching an uplifting movie with your best friend, who just happens to be the one you share your life and bed with.  Stopping typing of a blog to pet your devoted dog, who is getting up in years.

 

Right here, right now.